Blogtober writing challenge: abomination

Harder than expected, but infinitely valuable

When I first accepted Mark Sanders‘ invitation to be a part of the Blogtober writing challenge I thought that it would be a bit of light-hearted fun. At first it proved to be exactly what I hoped it would be. The topic of the day encouraged creativity. Positive peer pressure got me back into a daily discipline, and the strict word limit enforced an economy of language.

Unfortunately, the abomination that is trauma still had a vote. The highs and lows format I had chosen took me to places I was not yet psychologically prepared to go. Although a great deal of healing has occurred in my life over the last three years, it turns out I was not as ready to share the darkness of my emotions as I thought I was.

Journaling is how I process the world, so the writing continued, but after that initial flurry only a couple posts have seen the light of day. Quite simply, while personally helpful, what ended up on paper was not designed for public consumption.

With less than a week left in the month and only a handful of entries posted, I still consider this challenge successful. The variety of topics we wrote about demonstrated places where I have largely healed and exposed areas that are still too raw to even explore. While it was heartbreaking to see just how many of those remained, I am more aware of where my efforts should be focused

For that clarity, I am SOFNGR8FL.